:: last night, I may have had an itsy bitsy lil' pity party for myself.
:: no tears, just a little "this sucks, I'm never going to be able to do it this" party.
:: a party for no particular reason other than when I compare myself to others I don't like the results.
:: if you don't know this about me... I tend to be a bit hard on myself, and can never live up to my own expectations.
:: I know... silly, stupid, idiotic, dumb...
:: yup... that's me. Yours truly. Becky Schartz.
:: someone tell me to stop comparing myself, and my strengths and many weaknesses with others.
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:: today I had a patient that I will remember forever. He and his Somalian family.
:: beneficence. What a hard thing to swallow while doing.
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:: new SNA job starts tomorrow morning on the floor. Nothing like a small 6 am -12 shift to start things off right in the morning.
:: orientation went great! I drew blood and even got it on the first stick!
:: beginner's luck!!!!
:: this new job of mine... let's hope I don't have a near faint like I did today.
:: apparently 1 egg & a 90 calorie granola bar don't go very far.
:: I know this to be true when I had to sit down today during shift report.
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:: lots of stuff on my plate in the very near future.
:: remind me when I cry to you that I can handle it.
:: remind me that when I put my mind to something, I can always accomplish it.
:: remind me that mistakes are okay, and those are the best learning experiences.
:: remind me that sometimes ... I am smart. kind. and important.
:: and most of all... remind me to never lose my greatest trait... love & compassion.
:: much love to you all.
*muah*
I want to know the people you know, Becky. I decided to do what you have been doing and compare you to everyone I know. Somehow in all the categories that I notice about people (sincerity, loyalty, dedication, integrity, compassion, inspirational, concern, work ethic, and last but not least - compatibility with yours truly) you come out on top. So, if you have this whole other group of people more amazing than you I would like their contact information because I need them as friends in my life. I would be willing to bet, however, that it's more likely you just don't have a very accurate perception of yourself and where you truly rank among wonderful, beautiful people! I wouldn't trade you for the world!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteMuch love back at ya! MUAH