*vent*

i have never really truly felt hate...

i don't think.

until now.

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waah, waah, waah...

school is hard...

tests are hard...

concepts and materials are hard.

they are hard for everyone...

hard for everyone except the ass-kissers and know-it-alls who get special treatment.

(sorry Mom and Bob... i cursed)

these annoying people tell you everything you need to know... 

how, when, why, how they did it, what happened when they did it, and everything else they have done that you haven't. 

no... i haven't, because I don't have the experience and that's why i'm here.

i'm getting more and more of the experience that you seem to have and tell everyone about, but i seem to know how to keep it to myself, so those around me who are still getting that experience have the opportunity to learn.

ass-kissers win things. 

because they tell everyone how good they are. 

they let everyone within earshot and more where they work, who they know, all about everything they do on a daily basis.

those of us who sit back and watch but know just as much without telling the class / group how much you know... 

we don't get anything. 

but maybe a little respect from others who notice the same things i do.

from the mouth of my very wise mother and father...

"don't tell me how good you are, SHOW ME!"

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confidence in skills, I have.

gloating about said skills & whatever else i may know...

never will i.

mark.my.word.

(okay, maybe i'll gloat about friends and loved ones... but NEVER about myself)

this is a promise i make to myself and those around me.

i. will. not. gloat.

bragging is an annoying trait and un-becoming.

being a know-it-all is annoying.

being an ass-kisser is annoying as well.

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i feel as though in life, you learn from those around you.... to an extent. there are instructors for a reason... after all, I am in college. i am a student. i do not teach others. i teach myself. others around, who think they know all, YOU SHOULD NOT TEACH even if you know the answer i asked the instructor. you should let the instructor answer. you should let those of us who are maybe a little less "know-it-all" learn from the instructors that are there to teach and who have LOADS more experience and are not shooting in the dark with answers. 

i'm venting. it's tuesday. i'm sorry. 

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in other words. 

i had a midterm today.

whatever... another one down and only 5 more weeks of this quarter.

studying consumes, what i feel, to be every waking moment.

i am a little burnt out, to be honest. 

i can't wait to be a nurse. 

truly, honestly, it is what i will eventually love doing. 

it will mean that i succeeded in this trial of nursing school.

it will mean that i was smart enough to make it :o)

getting through the learning process has it bumps...

many, many, many bumps.

and this just happens to be one... 

people who annoy the crap out of me.

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i'm done venting.

thanks for listening.